Although I chose her clothes, and had trusted that the Funeral Directors had dressed her in them, yesterday, at the funeral, as we stood by the graveside, I couldn't help but wonder if she was warm enough down there deep in the earth.
Thank you Nana. My strange thoughts were perhaps induced by the fact that I'd been in bed with Flu (not covid) for some days and yesterday my daughter got me ready and my son drove us ....I was blessed to have them either side of me supporting me yesterday. I was drugged up on strong anti flu stuff and think I'm on the mend now as all I have are cold symptoms, a cold sore and I've lost my voice. She is at rest now.....and Life in all its weird ways goes on and on xxx
Mend well, Libs. Your immune system will be seriously compromised with all that's being going on. Your children will know that you need support, both emotionally and physically, at this time and sounds like they've got you covered. You can say that again about life and it's weird ways. At the mo, I'm sporting a very big, black Moonboot which is helping to keep the pins and metal plates that I had inserted in my ankle last week, after I fell downstairs and broke it in three places! You couldn't make it up!
My goodness Nana, I'm so sorry to hear about your ankle. How awful for you, rest it well and take care of yourself. That must have been very painful. Sadly my daughter lives many miles from me and my son lives quite close but has a wife and daughter that need him....I have good friends but (this could be an age thing) two of them have cancer and I am not encouraging (and don't feel well enough for) visitors......colour me selfish I know but I just feel sick sad and lonely.... I have never wanted a man in my life more than the last week....feeling sorry for myself here I know but I feel awful and would just like someone here as I'm alone...and being sick on your own is just the most horrible horrible experience......but I will get better and have strong words with myself and I'm praying for better times.....and forgive me for the self pity. x
You will recover Libby. My thoughts are with you. I am haunted by some very similar thoughts about my mother and did I do the right things at the time. It goes and recovery of a sort arrives slowly. xxx
Thank you Rachel. I am in a bit of a 'feeling unwell and have just had enough stage', but I still have things to do for my mom and my sister....both of whom I miss every day x
Loss of loved ones and grief is hard and takes time to process. Your son and daughter sound incredible...hold them close during this time. We will all have a final peaceful resting place and as you state life goes on. Weirdness included! Take care Libby.
So sorry for your losses. We had co-incidentally my late mother-in-law's funeral on 24th January. She died on 30th December after a very traumatic cancer (pancreas), but as she was 97, it had to happen. Everyone was deeply sad for those three and a half weeks, but the funeral (as so often the case) provided closure and people celebrated a long life well-lived, remembering what a great mum, granny and great-granny she had proved to be. I hope that you will now be able to remember the good times and move forward.
God Rest Her Soul now, Libs. xxx
ReplyDeleteThank you Nana. My strange thoughts were perhaps induced by the fact that I'd been in bed with Flu (not covid) for some days and yesterday my daughter got me ready and my son drove us ....I was blessed to have them either side of me supporting me yesterday. I was drugged up on strong anti flu stuff and think I'm on the mend now as all I have are cold symptoms, a cold sore and I've lost my voice. She is at rest now.....and Life in all its weird ways goes on and on xxx
ReplyDeleteMend well, Libs. Your immune system will be seriously compromised with all that's being going on. Your children will know that you need support, both emotionally and physically, at this time and sounds like they've got you covered. You can say that again about life and it's weird ways. At the mo, I'm sporting a very big, black Moonboot which is helping to keep the pins and metal plates that I had inserted in my ankle last week, after I fell downstairs and broke it in three places! You couldn't make it up!
DeleteMy goodness Nana, I'm so sorry to hear about your ankle.
DeleteHow awful for you, rest it well and take care of yourself.
That must have been very painful.
Sadly my daughter lives many miles from me and my son lives quite close but has a wife and daughter that need him....I have good friends but (this could be an age thing) two of them have cancer and I am not encouraging (and don't feel well enough for) visitors......colour me selfish I know but I just feel sick sad and lonely.... I have never wanted a man in my life more than the last week....feeling sorry for myself here I know but I feel awful and would just like someone here as I'm alone...and being sick on your own is just the most horrible horrible experience......but I will get better and have strong words with myself and I'm praying for better times.....and forgive me for the self pity. x
You will recover Libby. My thoughts are with you. I am haunted by some very similar thoughts about my mother and did I do the right things at the time. It goes and recovery of a sort arrives slowly. xxx
ReplyDeleteThank you Rachel. I am in a bit of a 'feeling unwell and have just had enough stage', but I still have things to do for my mom and my sister....both of whom I miss every day x
DeleteLoss of loved ones and grief is hard and takes time to process. Your son and daughter sound incredible...hold them close during this time. We will all have a final peaceful resting place and as you state life goes on. Weirdness included! Take care Libby.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your kind words Susan.
DeleteSo sorry for your losses. We had co-incidentally my late mother-in-law's funeral on 24th January. She died on 30th December after a very traumatic cancer (pancreas), but as she was 97, it had to happen. Everyone was deeply sad for those three and a half weeks, but the funeral (as so often the case) provided closure and people celebrated a long life well-lived, remembering what a great mum, granny and great-granny she had proved to be. I hope that you will now be able to remember the good times and move forward.
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