Friday, December 17, 2021


 On Tuesday of this week, the 14th, my older sister died.

In the same hospital where earlier this year, on the 14th of a different month, our mother died.

The same experience of death.

It crossed my mind as I drove home, distraught and sobbing, that in certain situations, for instance War, people possibly saw death almost too frequently to even take it in...that it became something they just acknowledged, or didn't......that it was too commonplace and inevitable to notice.

Let alone to cry over.

And I also wondered about how I could possibly and truly believe in two separate and different things at the same time......absolutely ........that there is no God and once you die you are just an empty skin and bone mass to be disposed of,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,and yet at the same time believed that there is some sort of 'other place' and existence to go to.

I only know that as I stroked her face and kissed her, I whispered to her 'can you see mom? shes's there waiting for you...go to her darling....go to her'

And she did.


  1. Very sorry for the loss of your sister, Libs. Glad you could be with her at the end. x

  2. I was thinking about you last night Libs. Such lovely words you shared with your sister that you have shared with us. You have had a difficult year, stay strong. x

  3. Oh, such sad news! I've been in the same place and it is heart breaking and horrible. Please be kind to yourself as you grieve.

  4. I am so sorry for the loss of your sister. You are a wonderful sister to be with and support her as she passes. I have no doubt, your mother and sister are together now. My thoughts are with you. Do take care.

  5. So very sorry to read of the loss of your sister. Thinking of you. Take care.

  6. I am so sorry to read of your second huge loss this year. How does one cope. Grief is such a private thing, and no-one else can really understand how one feels. Take care, cherish yourself.